I may make this quick. I don’t know. At this moment, I’m going through perimenopause at age 46 and will be going to the doctor soon for tests. It sucks, but it’s life as a woman.
In other news, on the writing front, I finished my fifth manuscript. It’s been tough finishing it after my cat died last autumn and the year before that my brother was murdered in August. Yeah, you read that right. It’s been a tough few years. BTW, I’m typing this entry right on my page. I would usually type it on a separate file. Sorry I’m all over the place on this entry. I’m just being real. I haven’t updated this blog in maybe 3 years? All that time I have been writing my author textbook for all my books I plan to write and writing the fifth manuscript and many short stories and studying the craft from the books I have bought over the years.
About the newest novel…it’s an Adult Portal High Fantasy trilogy. It is a complete rewrite from the first original back from 1996 when I was sixteen. I’ve edited the manuscript into a Draft 2 and gave it to a friend to beta read. Then once I go through the edits she may find, I will be querying to agents. This has been a long, long passion of mine like any writer, but this is extra special because now, in my mindset as an adult who has gone through enough of life, I know what to write about more seriously. The studying I have had to do to write better than I did in 2009 and having that book published in 2015 has taught me SO MUCH! You have no idea. I have even rewritten that book, too. It’s far better. That duology is on the back burning for now, but it is prepped for further work.
The most fearful part now, is all that god damn Anthropic AI shit! Like, what the fuck?! I’ve been watching what the Author Guild has been doing to combat Anthropic at every turn. Because of this AI slop, inshitifcation of art, that dictators, oligarchs and Nazis hate about civilization is the art that comes out of it no matter if it comes from painting, sculpture, music, acting, plays and novels and non-fiction. Without art in all its human made forms, there is no civilization. Without thinking to create said art from human minds, tears, hands and our souls, there is no civilization. That’s what these dictator assholes want to do-destroy civilization from the inside out.
While all of this goes out quietly or loudly, in front of us or inside the electronic; internet infostructure of civilization, I must not stop working on my magnum opus. For my novel and other authors who are just as stressed and scared, we must not give up on our souls. The time is now to pump out the art that makes us human and alive.
I hate it more with this AI nightmare is that we must prove what we write is real. These ‘AI detectors‘ are TRAINED on AI programing DUH!…that means they don’t fucking work! DUH!! So, if any editor, agent or publisher reads this entry, know that if you use AI on my manuscripts, I will come knocking at your door with every single printed draft, old and new manuscripts, short stories and poetry, logbooks and cataloging of my work for you to read through. AI can’t catalog the blood, sweat, tears and soulful energy that is put into the work of art. I have 30 years of work cataloged and if you fucking DARE to call my manuscripts AI, you won’t have me as a client. Let that sink in for all authors who are just as fuming pissed off at this shitstorm these techno-oligarchs have caused.
Oh and don’t get me fucking STARTED about Anthropic, ISBNdb with their ‘Project Panama’ to scan old books, chopping off the spines, scanning them and tossing them like dead bodies! FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKERS STRAIGHT TO HELL!! Fahrenheit 451 novel was a warning, not a playbook! Oh oh, and you know, if the worlds dictionaries were scanned through, it would still spill out AI SLOP YOU FUCKING IDIOTS!!!
Creation comes from hardship, experience, love, life through the minds, eyes, hands, blood, tears and the power of the soul of every living human being! That’s the law of nature! FUCK YOUR AI programing straight to HELL!!
Now, back to my work. To any author or writer, singer or any artist that read this-get back to work, but please take your breaks when needed. Don’t allow yourself to give in to despair. Keep writing. Keep painting. Keep reading real books!
Don’t give up! I won’t either!




